Dear readers,
Today, while I'm at school, I've started thinking to share this with you. It might be small for others but it had given major impact in my whole life.
As an English Language teacher, my life was surrounded with TEACHERS plus my whole family involved in education field. My father was once a headmaster and my sister is a successful Biology teacher.
Once, I had a conversation with my family about getting married with somebody who is neither in education field nor working in government sector. How do they feel if that situation happened to me? (which is happening now). As I expected, they are scared and what make them fear the most is my future husband has no guarantee to provide me with what I've needed. At first, I had the same thought since I have that guarantee for my whole 26 years of living. I have nothing to worry when it comes about money. Okay, that doesn't mean I'm living in luxury. I had a very average life, gais, don't get me wrong, okay? At least I'm not suffocated with financial issue.
However, being a class teacher for almost two years now, make me learn more about humanity. My pupils, taught me how to be a good human being. I am so grateful with whatever given by Allah and I struggle not to compare myself with others who have a better life. I have to, since my life is not at the worst state.
I can never imagine myself in my pupils' shoes. They, had the greatest challenge in their life and if I was at their position, I don't think I'll be able to be as strong as them. What's the relation with other occupations? Well, of course their guardian, either a single mother or a single father. Some of them need to sacrifice their occupation to take care of their children. Some, have to force themselves to work because they have no one to depend on. Some, have to lower down their ego and change their lifestyle due to their current situation. Hats off to the parents in giving their best to the children regardless whatever challenges ahead!
I am beyond grateful that my pupils trust me very much. I am their teacher and at the same time, I am their best friend. I love to share my stories either sad or happy with them. I need to tell them, they are not alone. I've been in the situation and hang in there, they will pass the storm too. However, some are still not applicable. I may not be able to comfort them all the time. I may not understand some of their struggle but I feel the pain. I feel it too.
Watching them growing up without human guarantee is hurtful and painful. This is life. We have rules but we tend to forget The One who Holds the whole universe. Our Creator, Allah S.W.T. The One who provides goodness, tests, Ar-Razak and the whole thing!
I'm scared too. At the age of 26, I still have fear of what will happen in the future. However, communicating with my creator builds up my confidence, faith and trust in Him.
Allah loves me and He loves all of you. He won't write anything bad in our journey of life. If something bad happened in our life, remember, He had written beautiful blessing behind it. Insha Allah, one day, we will be able to see it and our faith will grow stronger and better. Insha Allah.
Till the next post.
